Elf
Volunteer Soldier Trainee
Posts: 40
Character Name: Yasmin
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Post by Elf on May 25, 2023 11:55:03 GMT -7
Yasmin chuckles along with the joke about the hunters, because it is pretty good.
"Each of the gods plays their own role, though, right? Lumiaris doesn't tend to the dead, and apparently we prevent them turning into undead with fire, which feels more like a reference to the Dark god which has lost it's context. So, they do help, in their own way... just a very different one. Kind of like the dread knights themselves, really... Though it does genuinely suck they don't let people leave, and won't give me access to their books without joining. Those are definitely problems. Feels more like the human organization hoarding power for itself than anything the deity themself asked for."
This discussion of the gods did seem to be wrapping up, though, particularly with Nym repeating her point about healing, so Yasmin does take the hint with a smile and ask; "So, talk to me about what's going on with your magic. It was new, but overall it comes pretty easily to me, so maybe I can help?"
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Post by Wolfie on May 25, 2023 12:30:17 GMT -7
Nym sighed in response to the change in topic. She hadn't been struggling with her magic - she was able to cast the spells, with practice. If anything, she was simply...lacking. It wasn't like how quickly she had picked up the combative side of the Paladin's role; the magic had come slower, almost painfully in comparison.
"Well...it's just like, I really have to focus on it. Like, swinging a sword and dancing around the field of battle is natural. It feels normal to me, if that makes sense. Like I've always done it, or was born to do it." That statement had been bothering her for a while. She remembered nothing about her past, like everyone else who had come from the Forbidden Tower. Yet, somehow, she had known that wielding a sword and shield was...familiar, in a way. As if she'd done it before - as if her previous life had included such combat. "Magic though...it's new, and weird, and I don't really get it. It doesn't feel natural. Not like combat. It's like...I need to focus on it, put all my effort into it, in order to get a spell to work. And they do work, but...they don't come easily, or quickly."
Jeforan had told her that she wasn't pious enough, that it was Lumiaris not hearing her calls, or hearing a hesitation in her heart. Nym had doubts about that though, she had seen and heard others who were succeeding who questioned the will of Lumiaris. Even Yasmin has spoken words which Jeforan would look down upon. Pious old shit. I mean, he means well, but... She shook the thoughts away, surprised at her own negative imagery of the Paladin. She had nothing but respect for the man, understanding that he was hard because he was teaching her - and giving her the skills to survive.
"I don't know, maybe I'm doing something wrong, but...like, being slow at casting a healing spell could be...dangerous. It would be nice to have it flow as quickly and easily as you do."
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Elf
Volunteer Soldier Trainee
Posts: 40
Character Name: Yasmin
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Post by Elf on May 25, 2023 13:37:24 GMT -7
"Well, you've been able to cast the spells, so it's probably not a problem with your relationship with the goddess. She's not seen as capricious or needy, so unless you do something that really goes against her I don't think she'd make that difficult or cut you off entirely... It sounds like you're just having trouble wrapping your head around magic as a whole, which is an easier problem to solve."
She thinks for a moment, then offers the shoulder that was cut earlier; "So, let's get some practise. First, try to imagine the outcome you want to see, the stronger that image the easier it is to make it real... Lumiaris is the god of light, and that light is always all around us, even at night, so it's easy to just reach out to it and pull. Gently, no need to force it."
As she tries to lead Nym through the steps, even unconsciously the small glowing symbol of the healing spell forms at her own fingertips, so she smiles and places it against the largest bruise she'd caused Nym earlier, wiping it away.
"It's a part of the world around us, you just have to call out, and let it respond."
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Post by Wolfie on May 26, 2023 10:13:48 GMT -7
Yasmin was careful in her demonstration, showing Nym the ways in which a bruise could easily be healed. For a moment, Nym simply stared at the spot, before realising that it was already gone and the work done. She shook her head as she looked up at Yasmin, smiling slightly in an almost sheepish manner. "Yeah...you are far better at this than I am..."
Nym let her breath out, pushing aside her doubts and thoughts of everything except what she had wanted to do. She focused on the cut, looking at the skin around it and trying to imagine it closing over. She pictured, forcibly, the skin as it had been - soft, sealed and free of any signs of the wound it had incurred. Slowly, she reached out with her hand, letting it hover over the wound as she pushed outwards with the magic - a feeling of tingling passing through her hands before passing to the tips.
She pulled her hand back, her smile fading as the wound slowly appeared. She shook her head, sighing slightly. "It looks like you're still better at this than I am. I guess I can make the wounds, but not close them. At least, not easily."
Nym attempts Paladins' Cure: Ðæmhaïn Wølƒ Request: [1d50 + 1] Roll: [41] Result: 42 Reason: Heal Attempt | Taking up the Sword Success! Nym heals for 1 LP.
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Elf
Volunteer Soldier Trainee
Posts: 40
Character Name: Yasmin
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Post by Elf on May 26, 2023 16:30:11 GMT -7
Yasmin smiles as Nym tries to apply the advice, and does make some progress, even if it didn't close the gap in an afternoon;
"It is just like any skill, though. It comes more naturally to some people, sure, but that gap only really matters early on, after people've been working at it for a while you can barely tell who's talented and who needed a little extra help to catch up. Provided they actually get that help, anyway. Speaking of, if you're ever having trouble with the magical side of things, just let me know~!"
She offered it casually and without really thinking it through, but she's surprised when she realises just how sincerely she meant that offer of help.
It's weird... being good at something... I kind of like it.
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Post by Wolfie on May 27, 2023 19:27:30 GMT -7
Laying back on her hands, she considers the words of Yasmin. She knew that there were some things that came more naturally to certain individuals. Nym was gifted - if you could call it that - with the sword and shield. Yasmin had been gifted with the capability of spellcasting. Both had the ability to learn, and to grow with their weaker skills. Like she said, in time the differences between the talented, and those who are behind don't matter - so long as they continue practising.
"Time...time to grow. Yeah, I think you're right on that. I think practice will make us both better." Nym had leaned back against the ground as she admitted her thoughts aloud. She knew she wasn't adding much to the conversation - if it could be called a conversation, and not simply a period of peer teaching. "So, that's what I'm going to do. Keep on practising. One of these days, maybe I'll ever outpace you."
She accented her final words with a wink, sticking out the tip of her tongue as she did so in order to ensure the joke was noticed by Yasmin. She doubted she'd ever out shine Yasmin when it came to magic - but perhaps she could at least get better in her own way.
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Elf
Volunteer Soldier Trainee
Posts: 40
Character Name: Yasmin
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Post by Elf on May 28, 2023 4:14:50 GMT -7
"You can take your time with that one, I still need to catch up first." Yasmin jokes back, enjoying the relaxed banter they'd fallen into now that all the actual constructive stuff seems to be over for this morning.
After a quiet, thoughtful moment, Yasmin sighs; One thing that I don't think'll get any easier is the whole hurting living beings part. That's definitely not something I've ever actually done before, and yea we've been forced into it, so, people do what they need to do, but... I don't know how I'm going to take it when it actually happens... I just want to protect the other people caught in our situation as best I can...
She hadn't wanted to disrupt the chill vibes, but the topic is weighing heavy on the back of her mind, so she tries out actually talking about her problems instead of bottling them up.
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Post by Wolfie on May 28, 2023 13:06:51 GMT -7
Nym sat quietly for a few seconds after Yasmin's words. It wasn't that she hadn't thought them herself - they had been tossed into this, and although time had been rushed and there was little in the way of relaxation and decompression. Still, she'd had thoughts about what they were being trained to do, what was expected of them. She wasn't sure she could alleviate the worries of Yasmin - not when she was having those worries herself, when she was considering the implication that their lives had fallen upon, but she could at least try and make sense of the situation - a little bit, perhaps.
"I know what you mean. The idea of killing...I mean, I won't say it'll be impossible for me. But it won't be pleasant. It's not something I'd do for joy, or fun, or...well, it's something I'd only do because I have to, if that makes sense? Like...right now, if I was given the chance to simply walk away, to go find some other way of life...well, I might take that. It would be sad, a bit, because I like the fighting. At least, when no one is being killed...as ironic as that may be. But I would prefer no one had to get hurt." She realised she was rambling a bit, and that her thoughts weren't making as much sense aloud as they were in her head. Pausing to collect herself, she started again, hoping to clear it up a bit this time. "Sometimes we have to do things, because they need to be done. The way I'm looking at it, is that I don't want to do it, but I may have to...to make sure that others survive. Cause that's what we're doing, what our purpose is...right? Making sure that others survive? I mean, isn't that why you and I chose the route of Paladin...because we want to protect people? Sometimes to protect people, you need to hurt others. As much as I don't like it, it means that I may have to hurt - or maybe even kill - some...things."
She rocked backwards and placed her head against the ground, careful not to slam it. She wasn't entirely sure that her words were helping - in fact, they were nothing more than her own thoughts, but she felt like sharing them may somehow give Yasmin insight that the girl may have missed. Or just ignored. "I would prefer not to kill. But if it saves people I care about, then I will do it. It won't be easy, but I'll do it."
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Elf
Volunteer Soldier Trainee
Posts: 40
Character Name: Yasmin
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Post by Elf on May 29, 2023 3:43:55 GMT -7
Yasmin frowns, her expression distant; "We do protect people, yeah... And I'm definitely happy with that fact, I'm just... worried. The way things are, protecting the other people put in our position is only ever going to be an uphill battle... because the very kingdom we're supposedly fighting for will force those people... even children... into harm's way..."
Haven't even been here a week and apparently my mind is going straight to treason? Wow.
Yasmin lays back herself, letting out a long sigh; "Right now there's not a lot I can do to change any of that at the moment, though... So, killing goblins. I guess."
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Post by Wolfie on May 30, 2023 8:27:38 GMT -7
Nym was quiet for a time, letting Yasmin's worries really sink in. She hadn't considered the implications of the kingdom - but Yasmin was right, how could such a situation occur without someone taking into consideration the darker aspects of it. Perhaps here there's just a different view on who can fight... She wasn't sure why she thought it was different anywhere else, as it wasn't like she could remember what her life had been before. Somehow she felt like children weren't normally sent to fight monsters, but what did she know for sure?
"The best we can do for now, is to try and keep our friends alive, and maybe a few of the people around us...it's great and all to think about how the rest of the world works, but..." Nym raised both her hands, palms downwards and fingers spread in an odd gesture. "...as much as we may want o help everyone, we can only help those whose hands we can hold. Everything beyond that, is just an added bonus."
She had nothing more to add, no further insight. The situation was shit all around, as far as Nym was concerned - but she would never admit that aloud. The others needed hope, need to think that there was a silver lining to it all, that their actions would mean something. And it's up to me to give them that hope...to make sure they don't fade out in despair.
"We should head back soon. I'm sure Jeforan is just waiting to beat us to death."
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